The Collection, Part 3: Belts & Whips

As I have mentioned before, the only childhood spankings I remember were those given by my father.  I lived with my mother more often (they first separated when I was in kindergarten, and my brother and I moved back and forth between them), and know that she spanked me many more times, but I just can't remember a single incident.  My father spanked me only about 6 times in my life.  In each occasion, we were sent to our rooms, if we weren't already there (almost every spanking from my father happened to both my brother and me, always privately in our own rooms).  After a few minutes, he would enter with his wide leather Levi belt that hung in his closet.  We were spanked lying face-down on the bed, in whatever attire was already present--no pillow under the hips, as you see in spanking videos...something I wish we HAD had.  By the very last spanking I received, I was fully aware of my secret spanking fascination and, although I have never had any inclination or fascination with m/m spanking, the part that hurt the most was my erection bent at an awkward position and pressed into the unforgiving mattress, while my bottom withstood the lashing assault, shielded only by my underwear.

I don't remember what age I was at the time, nor what I did to earn a spanking, but I do remember snippets of the event fairly clearly.  When my father died, his belt was one of the few treasures I really wanted to keep.  I'm sure I could ramble on for hours, dissecting the psychological reasons why, and perhaps I will do so someday, but suffice it to say, that particular belt is a kind of transitioning tool, making the fantasy of spanking connect with the reality of punishment--an aspect of spanking with which I am utterly infatuated.


BELTS

Levi Belt

Length:  37” + buckle (large Levi metal buckle)

Width:  1 ¾”

Thickness:  < ½ cm

Smooth leather outside, suede inside

When used on us, this belt was always folded once, held at both ends, to make a loop.  It was never left with a loose end, to make a lash, although that is a very effective alternative--one that I prefer using.











Skinny belt

Length:  34” + buckle

Width:  ¾”

Thickness:  ½ cm

 This belt had also belonged to my father--it's old and limber.  The outside face of the belt is rounded, with snakeskin-textured ridges, although it is cowhide leather.  It's fun and easy to use ;)

You can see the  difference in size between these two belts.  I love them both!










Ridge belt

Length:  40” + buckle

Width:  1 1/8”

Thickness:  1/8”

This one is the first belt I purchased for myself (to keep my pants up, until I outgrew it).  It is leather, with ridges on the outside face, but flat on the inside (of course).  It has a square edge on the hole end, making it less desirable as a lash.








Snake belt

Length:  45” + buckle

Width:  < 1”

Braided leather, with a metal tip

I think this belt was also my father's.  It is made of braided leather, and has a pointed metal tip.  This is not a belt I would readily use for spanking purposes.  If I did, I would probably use it inside-out--the inside is flatter than the outside, so would be less likely to damage skin...and I would NEVER use the metal end (nor the buckles on any belt).  I would, however, use this as a restraint.









WHIPS 

As mentioned in the last part, I have far less interest in BDSM than in spanking.  Nevertheless, I couldn't resist these: 


Suede Cat o' Nine Tails

16 Tails: L = varying 16 ¼” – 16 ½”, W = ½”, thickness = 1/8”

Soft blue suede, with pointed ends.  Medium heavy. Smooth plastic covered handle

I think this Cat is beautiful.  It's very soft, so not very painful.  It's more of a toy than an implement, requiring quite a swing to cause a sting.












Rubber Cat o’ Nine Tails 

 

8 Tails: l = 22” but stretch past 36”, w = ¼” very thin

Handle: l = 8 ¼”, dildo end l = 6 ½”, diameter = 7/8”

Very light

This Cat stings even less than the suede one.  The tails are so thin and stretchy, that they're not very effective, unless you hit just right.  It was the handle that I couldn't resist!  While I'm not into ponygirls, or that sort of thing, I still thought it might be fun and effective to give someone a tail ;)

 Bullwhip

 

Length:  46” + 4 tails, varying 7 – 7 ½”

Braided black leather

This is also a toy I wouldn't really use on a person--especially because there is a knot just above the tails at the end.  I have just always been fascinated with bullwhips.  This one came from an adult shop, but I will one day find an authentic one.

The Collection, part 2: Crops & Canes

To be perfectly honest, I'm not a big fan of canes or riding crops.  Crops, to me, lean more toward BDSM in general, rather than spanking, specifically.  While I understand BDSM, and don't mind participating (to some extent), the whole concept feels...colder to me, whereas spanking is more intimate and personal for me, and is exponentially more intriguing, arousing, and fulfilling for me (I am well aware others will disagree, but this is my perception of myself, and many others I've encountered, not to be taken as generalizing).

Canes, however, are--for many people--more severe than other spanking implements.  While I enjoy the pinks and reds that spanking paints bottoms with, I am not a fan of welts or bruises.  Some pains I find delicious, other pains...well...painful.  Perhaps, had canes been prevalent as tools of childhood punishment during my youth, I would have more of a nostalgic connection toward them, but, at present, they are simply instruments of pain in the eye of my psyche.  Additionally, like crops, their use puts more physical distance between players, leaving a bit less of an energetic and emotional connection between people (with the exception of, for lack of a better term, "lap canes"--shorter, to be maneuverable in an OTK or other closer situation).

Don't get me wrong; I am not wholly against canes or crops.  Both of these types of items have their uses.  Canes make sense to me within a relationship in which true physical punishment is received--a kind of relationship I would like to find.  Crops are fun toys.  Both can be erotic--crops are great to use on a spread-eagled, blindfolded girl (in numerous ways !), and I would expect canes to be very exciting to those who were raised in places where canes were used for punishment--but I, personally, find them less erotic than spanking (in truth, I distinguish, mentally, between spanking and caning).

Bottom line (pun intended):  I have used the cane, but it's just not the same.

Anyway, enough of that.  Half of my childhood was spent on a ranch in California (moving back and forth between parents).  When my father died, and I became administrator of the estate, I spent 6 months living on it again, during which time I paid a visit to the farm store, and purchased a selection of actual riding crops.

RIDING CROPS
(from firmest to most flexible)

Blue

Length:  19.5” + handle (rubber grip)

Very firm shaft; no give

Open duck-bill end:  l = 2”, w = 1 ¼”

 

I like this one for its rigidity and narrow tip.  The way the whip end is open, rather than looped, makes a different sound, and sting as well.











 Horse Whip

Length:  1 yard, + handle (rubber grip)

Width:  tapers 1 cm – ½ cm

Firm shaft, but a little flexible

Loose whip end:  l = > 6”

Unlike most crops, this does not have a wide leather tip.  Instead, it has a short, braided string, to give it an extra sting, similar to the short whip-sticks that carriage drivers use.  On a human, it can be used for the typical specific sting like a normal crop (albeit a stronger sting!), or as a narrow cane.

Black Bell

Length:  17” = handle (rubber grip)

Bell-shaped loop end:  l = 1 ½”, w = tapers 1” – 2”

 

The widened, bell-shaped leather on the end of this crop changes the aerodynamics, and therefore, the feeling of the impact.

Black

Length:  20” + handle (rubber grip)

Shaft is braided plastic

Softer suede loop end:  l = 2”, w = 2” –notched corners






 

 This is the only crop I own that is not "authentic"--not actually sold to use on horses.  This one was purchased in an adult fetish store in New York City.  The notched sides of the end of the loop give this crop yet another aerodynamic, as does the more flexible shaft and more mobile suede end.

Green 

Length:  24” + handle (rubber grip)

Shaft is braided plastic—a little more flexible than #1

Stiff leather loop end:  l = 3”, w = 2”, & 1 cm notched hole

This crop has a notch in the center, which, if you flick it quickly enough, will whistle a bit--enough to let the spankee know it is coming...

CANES

Rattan Cane 

[Okay, here's the part where, suddenly, blogspot's formatting has changed, and I can't shape things as I have been all along!  Soooooo frustrating!]

Length:  30”

Width:  1cm

(oooh...got it to work...wish me luck!)

The bow in the center of the shaft changes the impact of the cane, depending on which way the cane is facing.

Rod

Length:  27”

Width:  1 cm

Hard rubber or plastic

Fairly flexible

I used to think the use of this was like "spanking with a cane".  It's heavy, so gives a cane-like sting, combined with a paddle-like "thud".

"Intense Impact" Cane

Length:  18 ¼” + 6” handle (molded rubber grip)

Width:  Tapers 3/8” – ¼”         

Solid plastic shaft—rigid, but with some give

This is my latest acquisition.  I found it on Amazon, for less than $20.  They gave it that title--it's what I meant by a "lap cane".  It's short, easy to hold, and could easily be used for an over-the-knee spanking.

Wood Slat

Length:  30”

Width:  ¾”

Thickness:  < ¼”

Sanded, with rounded edges

This is simply a thin, flat, narrow strip of wood that I found lying around the house--one of those moments where you have no idea where the thing came from, but want it.  I sanded the sides, edges, and tips.  It's light, and feels something like a ruler, but can't be used too hard without breaking.

Whip Antenna

Length:  up to 21 ½” (telescoping)

Width:  > ¼” - < ¼”

Very light aluminum

This is a car antenna that had broken off ("whip antenna" is the technical term, not my doing).  I would never decide to use this on someone, unless they wanted or needed, and could handle, severe pain.  This is the kind of implement that, if misused, would easily break the skin, which I would never want to do.

Most of these I have never used, except in play or demonstration--a quick couple of flicks with each crop, to see how they differ.  Some I would like to use in certain situations (I do like to use the cane in a "schoolgirl" scenario, but have far less interest in having it used on me than most of my toys), and others I have no interest in using, but they fit well in the collection.

More to come.........

"The Collection" 1.1--update

This is one of those posts I started, but couldn't finish until I could upload photos:

This sits in place right next to my computer at all times, but I totally forgot about it while cataloguing my spanking toys.

Flyswatter

            Length:  22 3/8^th” (end to end), 5¼” head

            Width:  tapers out to 4 5/8^th”

            Thickness:  1/16^th”

Light, rubbery plastic with many tiny holes.  The arm is stiff, but the head is very flexible, making it very stingy.

I remember, as a child, my grandmother on my mother's side had a metal flyswatter--I think it was homemade out of a wire clothes-hanger and a bit of metal screen.  If I remember correctly, it's another item my mother and her siblings were spanked with--perhaps I got a swat or two with it...I can't recall, but somehow I know how stingy it was.



I was always intrigued by the idea of spankings with a flyswatter, and fell in love with this one when I first laid eyes on it!

Sadly, it hasn't been used...yet......

FINALLY!!!!!!

My computer is a crotchety old crone, and I keep trying to make her compete in triathlons.  I've been trying for weeks to upload photos with picasa, but the effort continually froze my computer entirely.  Tonight, I finally managed!!!  I will now be able to continue the numerous blogs I've started, but have been unable to  complete (assuming my PC hag continues to wheeze out breath).  In the meantime.....this:

AMEN!

The Collection, Part 1

A MONTH AND A HALF????  My poor blog has been neglected for far too long!  I offer my most sincere apologies!  To ease back into it, this will be a multi-part entry.

By nature, I am a collector.  I collect a great number of things:  CD's, DVD & VHS movies, rocks & crystals, clothing, photos, art, books of many different genres, comic books, music scores & sheet music, jigsaw puzzles, chess sets, anything to do with Alice in Wonderland........the list can go on and on.  I even collected stickers when I was a child.  Perhaps my most secret of collections is of spanking implements.  Being a colossal nerd, I make lists and categorize many of my collections, as personal, if perhaps futile projects.  Here is part one:

HOUSEHOLD ITEMS

These are normal, everyday items that have either been retired from their originally intended purposes, or purchased with spanking in mind.

The hairbrush:

            Length:  10” (5 ¼” + handle)

            Width:  > 3 ¼”

            Thickness:  wood 3/8”

    Light, varnished wood; square shaped

    Plastic tipped solid plastic sparse bristles

This is my absolute favorite spanking implement.  I love the smooth feel of its backside, and delight in the popping sound as it strikes another backside.  I like the feel of it in my hand, as well as on my bare bottom.  I have been spanked with this very brush, and have used it on several girls.


I do love women's hair--love to play with it, and love to brush it--so this is my most versatile toy.





Bathbrush:

            Length:  14” – 4” long head

            Width:  2 ¾” at widest

Satin Wood, and Moderately soft boar bristles

Very smooth finish, slightly curved back.

Heavy.

I don't know where this brush came from originally.  I think it was my father's, but it was unopened in a closet.  I have never had an opportunity to use it, but it is a beautiful instrument.

Small Wooden Spoon:



            Length:  14”

            Width:  1 ½” at widest

Unfinished, smooth wood.  Very light.  Rounded front and back

Very light, round handle

I have used this spoon on a girl.  I will talk more about her later, after I've shown all the implements I used on her.  This was lovely, except the handle is so small that it made my hand fatigue from having to grip it so tightly.  I need to wrap it with something to thicken it.

Wooden Spatula:

            Length:  slanted edge; 11 ½” – 12”

            Width:  > 2 1/8” at widest

            Thickness:  ¼”

Slightly curved serving end, with tapered edge

Light, but wide handle

I've had this spatula since before I went to college.  It's an old friend...and well worn.

Slotted Spatula:



          



            Length:  12”

            Width:  2 ¾” at widest

            Thickness:  tapers from 3/16”

Bamboo spatula—very light, flat bottom

2 holes, 2” long x 3/8” wide

I used this for cooking until it cracked.  Because of the split, it's great as a panty-warmer, but I wouldn't use it on bare skin.

Name Ruler:

            Length:  12” (of course)

            Width:  1 1/8”

            Thickness:  1/8”

Hard foam, very light and somewhat flexible

I've had this ruler since first or second grade.  It has my name on it (sorry...darkened out to protect the..."innocent").  I love rulers as spanking implements.  There's something so sincere, as well as youthfully realistic about spanking with a ruler.  They also enhance my schoolgirl penchant.  This one is very smooth and light, but has a thickness to it, so it should leave some pretty lines.

Blue Ruler:

            Length:  12”

            Width:  1”

            Thickness:   1/8”

            Light wood, blue

This ruler is wooden, and matches the next item...

Yardstick:

            Length:  36” (of course)

            Width:  > 1”

            Thickness:  ½ cm

            Light wood, blue

My grandmother was an elementary school teacher.  This, and the previous ruler, belonged to her.  I wonder if she ever used them the way I would like to use them?

Rubber Ruler:

            Length:  12”

            Width:  1 ½”

            Thickness:  1/16” with tapered edges

Purple, translucent plastic—very flexible!

This ruler is not actually rubber, but a flexible plastic.  Therefore, it doesn't have the same friction rubber would have.  It's smooth and slick...and stingy!  It's firm enough to hold its shape, rather than flopping around, but curves around a bottom beautifully.  When I saw this in a store, I could NOT leave without buying it!

******As a side note, trying to create this post has been the most frustrating experience! Blogger's formatting has been totally inconsistent--I often cannot make it do what it just did, and the preview looks nothing like what I've done:  every item of writing is centered, even though I've aligned everything to the left, and all the spacing's different from what I've done.  This took at least an hour longer than it should have, and I still can't make it look the way I want!

Self-spankers...wow!

As a professional dancer, I have a high tolerance for pain.  The first time I went to a chiropractor--one who worked on Broadway dancers--we discussed this phenomenon.  He began to work on my back, saying, "Tell me when this starts to hurt--wait...no...you're a dancer."  He informed me that dancers most often will not register pain, so would remain silent, even at a point when a non-dancer would be screaming.  He's right.  Pain is a regular part of our training, and often, our art.

That, coupled with a long medical history--including such gems as: herniated disk, unusually sharp bone spur, kidney stone, ulcerative colitis, scarlet fever, chicken pox, numerous ear infections, chronic headaches & frequent migraines, multiple epidurals, innumerable blood tests & shots, long hours of physical therapy, and the usual sprains and strains--has inured me to pain, generally (I had a very ill childhood :(   ).

That being said, a few nights ago, after hearing my roommate leave the apartment, I let a whim take me:  I took my flat, square-ish, wooden hairbrush from my nightstand drawer, bared my bottom and, standing straight upright, gave myself a quick ten swats, alternating five on each cheek.  I was shocked at how much each swat stung!  Admittedly, I don't do this very often, so my bottom's not accustomed to it; and I have little padding there, especially with the Ballet classes I've been taking lately.  Still, it surprises me (a difficult thing to do, really) just how sensitive my bottom is to a little spanking.  This does not deter my desires one bit--I still strongly crave to be given a real, out-of-my-control spanking by a woman; the same kind of spanking I so immensely crave to give to a recalcitrant girl.

I am simply even more impressed by those who practice self-spanking.  It requires a great deal of willpower, determination, courage, and stamina, in my opinion.

I had one lover who, during phone-sex sessions, I would command to spank herself.  She was a nymphomaniac, who I introduced to spanking (I'll talk more about her in detail at a later date).  While on the phone with her, I had her take the wooden hairbrush I'd bought for her (and to use on her), and spank herself.  I could hear the swats connect, and her accompanying moans, but I'd often demand that she spank harder.  Eventually I would tell her to push the handle of the hairbrush inside herself, and use it as a dildo until she came.  The voyeur in me loooooved these phone calls!  Apparently, so did a school friend of hers, who later admitted to having stood outside her dorm room door and listened.

If I can figure out how to do this right, here is one of my favorite self-spanking videos.  It's short, but I love the expressions on her face--you can tell she is truly punishing herself, but determined!

(Oh, thank God...I thought I'd lost this whole thing, but it saved itself as a draft!!!  Strike 2...)

(Ooooo-kay...guess I am unable to upload a video...strike 3...)

(Ahahahhahahahaaaaaaa *maniacal laughter*...it worked! ...maybe!)

The Return...

Wow...I can't believe my poor bloglet has been ignored for so long!  Here's a short true story, to ease back in...

My ex-step-mother (yes, you read that right) iterated this story to me, about some former neighbors.  I spent at least half of my childhood on a ranch in northern California (a mile from the Oregon state line).  The area is high-altitude desert, but is mostly flat--once a lake, that had been drained to create farmland.  We lived just at the bottom of the West Hill.  There was a small, ramshackle house across the road from us, just up the beginning of the hill.  For a brief time, the house was inhabited by my father's best friend, his young wife, and their newborn baby boy.  Visiting their house was the first time I ever witnessed a mother's breastfeeding a child.

...but that is not the story.

Several years later, after the family had moved to a nearby town, and my father had divorced my step-mother, she was visiting the mother.  By this point there was a second son, and the first, Christopher, was about 4 or 5 years old.  Apparently, it was past his bedtime, but his mother was having trouble getting him to stay in bed.  When he refused to obey, and got himself out of bed, she finally fetched a wooden spoon from the kitchen and spanked him, in the presence of my ex-stepmother.  I can still hear her voice saying something like, "If you git outta bed again I'm gonna spank yer butt.", with her slight country twang.  Christopher, once he'd stopped crying, remained undaunted, and he climbed out of bed again, coming back out to where the ladies were chatting.  He received another dose of the wooden spoon, and another admonishment, again being told that to disobey again meant another session of "spank yer butt".  Finally, little Christopher, still headstrong having subdued another bout of tears, climbed out of bed a third time, went to the kitchen to fetch the wooden spoon, brought the spoon to his mother, and said, "spank-a-my-butt".  If I remember correctly, the ladies were laughing too hard to even try to put Christopher back to bed.


On a personal note:
As I've mentioned before, the only implement I was ever exposed to was a belt, but most spankings for me were with a hand.  Apparently the actuality was close by, but the real use of other implements never even occurred to me--I had seen paddles, but never in someone's home, and never in use, or really even referred to.  I still kind of yearn to know what it would have been like to experience actual corporal punishment with a paddle or wooden spoon.  The whole idea of these implements as regularly used family tools somewhat stymies me, simply because they were never a part of my life at all.  Unfortunately, I don't believe I can ever truly know what they were like (I'm sure some would say I am fortunate in that, but it leaves a hole for me and my mind).  I can play or pretend (and have...), but to experience these things now is never quite real.  This goes for both giving and receiving spankings.  I desire...yearn...crave the reality that I think I cannot truly experience.  Perhaps I am wrong...that remains to be seen.

Anyway...here's a little picture for motivation (thanks, Facebook):